Towards the end of a pregnancy, most expectant mothers will wake up to go to the bathroom every few hours. I think this is the body’s way of preparing you for a newborn and the impending sleepless nights!
I used to yearn for quiet and time to be able to accomplish the simplest of tasks around the house without a munchkin attached to my hip.
Enter preschool. Aaahhh…two days a week – six whole hours of “me” time. Time when I can get the house cleaned, laundry folded, errands run in half the time.
Since Ella and Aidan's first day of preschool last August, today is the very first time that I actually just dropped them off and came home. Until today, I filled the time with errands upon errands, occasionally babysitting friends’ children, random doctor appointments, lunch with friends, etc.
Today, the house is quiet. I was able to go through the motions of laundry, dishes, cooking and picking up without interruptions.
The funny thing is, I don’t have a clue how to operate in silence anymore. Quite frankly, it's lonely.
The silence is deafening.
I MISS the interruptions. I WANT Ella and Aidan to be under my feet asking for cookies. I WANT to hear them playing with their toys. I WANT to take 45 minutes to unload the dishwasher because they keep trying to help. For every time I uttered the words “I just can’t get anything done with these kids under my feet all day” I am eternally regretful.
The days that I looked forward to naptime so I could get a grocery list made, or finally fold all the piles of laundry…I regret those days too. If I could do it all again, I’d enjoy EVERY SINGLE WAKING MOMENT with them. I would never wish for them to sit still or take a nap or go to bed early.
There are so many couples in the world walking in the very same shoes that we filled many years ago. Wishing, hoping, dreaming for a child of their own. Did I really forget that pain - that yearning - this quickly into Ella & Aidan's little lives?
From now on, I will treasure every second with them and never again take for granted the precious gifts that we have been given in our little miracle babies.
2 comments:
It is amazing how you go almost insane while they are under feet when you are trying to get something done but miss them horribly when they are away. :)Dana
Every mom enjoys some quiet time, don't feel guilty about that! You are a great mom - the kids are very lucky. Personally, I get my quiet time at 4am and LOVE IT!! :)
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